Hungry

I know....weird title to a blog right? I'm not referring to hungry as in I want a slice of pizza. I'm talking about a different kind of hunger. A hunger for the Lord. This morning I was at my bible study at our new church. I sat there and was so painfully convicted. Convicted that I have made this WHOLE move about ME! I've been so focused about how I feel and what its like for me, how much I miss my family and friends and how lonely I am. Notice all the things pointing to me. Making it ALL ABOUT ME! Boy have I got it all wrong. I've missed it. I've missed Him. Am I hungry for him? In my loneliness am I craving Him? In my sadness am I seeking Him for comfort? Why oh why am I pushing back? I'm missing what he's doing. I'm missing all the friends he has put in my path. He's trying to show me his love and faithfulness and I'm missing it cause I'm so focused on me. I feel like today my eyes were opened a bit more. I want to sit with my arms open, not crossed. I want to take it all in. I want to continue to be changed ultimately to glorify Him. However long our time here is in Boston, whether it's 4 years or 14 years I don't want to get to the end and have missed it all. Missed it all by focusing on me and my selfish ways.
At bible study they played this song this morning and I have to share it. I has resonated with me all day. In fact I just purchased it on itunes! :) It's called "Hungry" By Kathryn Scott. If you have the chance listen to it. But for now I'll share the words with you.

Hungry I come to you 
For I know you satisfy 
I am empty but I know 
your love does not run dry 

So I wait for you 
So I wait for you 

Im falling on my knees 
Offering all of me 
Jesus your all this heart is living for 

Broken I run to you 
For your arms are open wide 
I am weary but I know 
Your love does not run dry 

So I wait for you 
So I wait for you